Advanced Emotionally Driven Social Interactions

OOOOOR.....MORE COMMONLY KNOWN AS RELATIONSHIPS

Every now and then you come across a relationship that sparkles, like most shiny new things that sparkle goes away under wear and tear. I gotta say, I absolutely LOATHE that feeling. I shall be transparent for a moment and open up my life. I have been in a relationship for 7 months now and it has been a test, good and bad. The assimilation of two personalities is always difficult, no matter how similar. Relationships can be so trying, why do outside factors weigh in? I often wonder why God allows for humans to have free choice in those we love. I know he knows it would make it easier if we were somehow spiritually bound from birth to our life partner, but nope, on the 5th day he said "LEARN TO LOVE".... Just my luck. In all of my 26 years of "infinite wisdom" it seems as though God has said so many things in one small breath when I've attempted to date. 

Sigh..... I am struggling with myself in a relationship now, the older it gets the newer it gets (THE STRUUUUUUGGGGGGGLLLLLE). I mean I am pulling my hair out trying to be this idealistic mate, in which I am failing at might I add, because our foundation is rocky! HA! Imagine that a developer who has a rocky foundation in life, God and his irony😏! Ah, well... This post is coming from frustration. Every time I want to appreciate something in the relationship, I still suffer from wondering mind syndrome. Such a hard thing to cope with when you aren't exactly stable... 

You know, I have a lot to say but no way to say it on the matter... It's so frustrating. GOD, if you can hear me, I'd truly enjoy a "freaky Friday" moment so that him and I understand each other!!! (I'm sure he is enjoying a laugh at my request right now). 

Let me sleep on this and maybe I'll come back in a timely manner with a good story!