How do you know when you've fallen in love? Is there some checklist that you mark off? Can you feel it like growing pains? Does it have a sound? A taste? A smell?
Have you met someone and something is just different about them? You go through the cliche "I cant stop thinking about them" moments... You find yourself smiling by yourself because you thought or saw something that reminded you of a time you spent with them? When you think of the time you have spent with them good or bad you cant help but be a kinder more gentle person because those thoughts make you warm inside? Yea, as mushy as it all sounds I think I'm experiencing these feelings all over again.
I've asked myself these questions over and over with every relationship that I've managed to tangle my emotions into.... With that said... I wonder if I can answer the questions I've asked because the future isn't in my grasp. I understand the love I have for my family & friends, but this love between two people that in God's divine plan makes you cross paths (in my case) at the most inopportune time....
As much as I'd like to avoid the thought of one day sharing myself with my "other half"... It's damn near inevitable. I watch tv, I listen to music, I flip through magazines and damn near EVERYTHING is pertaining to love and how to find it. To quote my best friend "I am in love and I hate it"
I dont even know if I can truthfully speak on it as much as I want to at the moment because the tremors of my heart are as unpredictable as the waves of the ocean. I feel like Im scared to let myself fully love because I dont want to get hurt, but who does? This is the moment of my life that I fear and look forward to all at the same time.... I think about it daily because I am and always will be a hopeless romantic (I blame disney whole-heartedly)! Everything I read, watch and chose to be in life pertains to that emotion that is more addictive than cocaine...
In the words of my fave Corinne Bailey Rae.... "Is this love, is this love, is this love... that I'm feeling?"... Stay tuned!
I dont even know if I can truthfully speak on it as much as I want to at the moment because the tremors of my heart are as unpredictable as the waves of the ocean. I feel like Im scared to let myself fully love because I dont want to get hurt, but who does? This is the moment of my life that I fear and look forward to all at the same time.... I think about it daily because I am and always will be a hopeless romantic (I blame disney whole-heartedly)! Everything I read, watch and chose to be in life pertains to that emotion that is more addictive than cocaine...
In the words of my fave Corinne Bailey Rae.... "Is this love, is this love, is this love... that I'm feeling?"... Stay tuned!
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